WHAT if we redefine “perfect”?

WHAT if we redefine “perfect”?

I am writing a workbook. And I want to craft the most beautiful tapestry with the strings composed of two decades of exploration. Strings from my morning and evening writing practice, rehearsals, classes, workshops, private clients, meditations, musings. From my teachings and my teachers. From hundreds of pages already written.

But every time I go to assemble them I drown. I get lost in the threads. I catalogue and discover, I remember and reminisce. I lean too much on wisdom I deem worthy from the past and miss the current of life that is streaming through me IN THIS exact moment. I miss the weaving with the mystery and the unfolding of known and unknown, the constant dance of manifest and unmanifest. 

When I grasp too heavily on these prewritten words I forget that it is the urgings BEHIND the words that are the alive inspiration, not the perfect artifacts of the longing itself. The longing for deep self-knowledge and transformation. The whispers of the innate knowing. The inner wisdom that is available to everyone at any moment once we peel back the layers of preconceptions, habitual belief systems, fear and pride. 

When we redefine perfection as- a system able to channel the life force- we already are perfect. We are all channeling life force in some way or another all the time. Every moment you breath and your heart beats. That is life force. Every moment you have sensation, feeling, urge, thought..that is life force coursing through you unbound and unbridled.

Your alignment is perfect once you stop with affect. And the “perfect” alignment today will be different from tomorrow. Your mind is perfect once you stop narrowing the channels of thought. Your emotions are perfect once you stop deciding which ones are acceptable. Your creativity is perfect once you give it that blank space, the thing that may terrify you most- and you say- the object created is not the point- the point is the act of creation itself. It is the practice of being in the alive juiciness that is the perfect vibration of the creation. 

“More than ever things are falling away—
the things that we live with—and what is replacing them
is an urge without image.”

Rilke’s 9th Elegy translated by Gary Miranda. Read the whole thing here.

IMAGE is “What a human being is” by Hilma of Klint